Promises are suppose to be done

I want to travel to lots and lots of places these days, but I have no idea why. I just want to travel, no matter where my destination is. It could be anywhere - It could be an island where I am wearing a printed flowery dress and drinking a glass of coconut juice which I hated much on a white sandy beach. It could also be an adventurous trip whereby I've gotta go for hiking for several hours just to see the sunset or either sunrise. I just long to go somewhere. I want to do something exciting, open my eyes to explore the world. There are lots of places which I dream to be there someday - The 7 wonders on earth. ( I'm lucky that I had already been to two- Angkor Wat, Cambodia and Statue of Liberty, America ). I don't want to regret when I grow older next day, when I don't have the stamina to do all those crazy things, or maybe when I'm afraid to try new things. I once told my dad that I want to travel the whole world before I turn twenty when I was younger. And now, I found it so silly. It's  just a silly dream. But, I look through a girl's Facebook photo album that day, the passion of travelling is back once again. Those photos were taken when she was in South Africa for a month. I fell in love to South Africa even though I did not been there before. I promised myself  that I will go there before my age turns twenty. I wish I can save up in this one to two years time so that I can kept my own promise.

This is the picture which get back all my passion to travel, recollected what I had said and also dreamed of when I was younger. Few years later, I will capture this picture by myself c;  

* MOO

I will be back, Ben's c:

I went for a simple dinner with singying at Ben's on the day before yesterday ( 27th of Jan- in case I forgotten this important day). This is what I usually dreamed of, having a simple dinner with a friend or two, or maybe a bunch of lovely people in a western restaurant. And yet, dreams do come true. Yipee! The gathering isn't suppose to be just the two of us. It's actually more than 10 primary school friends are going, but some were busy with their life. And so, the amount of friends went from 10 to 6 and then from 4 to 2. I know, is kinda sad, but I still appreciate the time I had with her:) Is actually a good thing, going out with some friends for a day to have a simple dinner, not to eat, but just to know how each other is going on these days. ( I know we can do this through phone or webcam, but I LIKE TO SEE PERSON IN REAL, LIKE REAL!). Yet, all I can really remembered what was really happening on Saturday was, we are extremely hungry and thirsty. At first, we went to Uniqlo to look for pants as singying's mom told her that there were sales. The price was like WOW! So, we just walk off from the shop and went for food. We can't find Ben's although we look at the directory. And so, I gave up. I stopped by and asked a worker at a beverage stall because I know it will be much more efficient than walking around just to look for the restaurant. Yea, we finally made it!

I love how the way they design the restaurant. It's simple, a daisy yellow wall with black photo frame hanging on it. I eventually slow down while the waiter lead the way to our table. I regretted of not taking any photos with that wall. It just stuck in my mind now. We sat outside as the restaurant was very packed. I'm okay with it, is just that I can't look at the lovely wall and the rack with cakes on it anymore. How sad is that:( I know, I should appreciate the moments that who I'm with not the place where I'm sitting. But, you know. Anyway, we are quite lucky on that day because it's pretty windy outside.

Menu came, and food were ordered:)

We had a very difficult time to choose what to eat as the food here was perfectly described. We had no idea what to choose for the main course or even dessert. We stuck in either choosing sundae or cake for dessert. Not only mentioning about that, the flavour,  ingredients, way they cook and present the food, were just making us felt even more difficult to choose what to order. It just went through my mind when I looked through every single food that were printed on the piece of menu. Can you just imagine that we discussed our food for almost 15 to 30 minutes? We just simply cannot decide what awesome food shall we ordered to fill our dinner with love:) I know is already full of love, but we just want it more. We had finally made a few choices after struggling for a moment. ( our stomach was actually growling at that time, we just wanna fill our stomach with lots and lots of food, how embarassing is that!) 

Our very first dish was Pasta Basil Pesto. The basil leaves and pine nuts were chopped so fine and it kinda stick on every single pieces of spaghetti. You can actually feel the pine nuts. Not talking about the olive oil and cheeses on top of the plate of spaghetti, it was so perfectly matched together.

Next, we had a pie chicken mushroom that was ordered by miss cheen sing ying. I don't really fancy it, but the small cup of salad had just boost my taste bud. It's has a mild sweet and sour feeling, I can't really taste what was the dressing on it, but it certainly taste good ( is already close to fantastic to me). Vege salad and tomatoes were mixed together with all kinds of nuts ( I just can't named all of it). Tell me! Why on earth has a cook who made this salad! It's so yummy! I told myself that I will come again just to order the salad:) 

Lastly, dessert time. This is what most girls like, and I don't understand why. Anyway, we had a berrific sundae. And yes, it tastes ''berrific''! Fresh strawberries, blackberries, blueberries were placed in the glass of vanilla ice cream with chocolate toppings above it. There's also a layer of biscuit underneath ( I love digestive biscuit!). I'm not those strawberries lovers but this berrific sundae is worth for a try, even me myself fall in love in it. They did not really use any special ingredients for that dessert, but it just made my heart melts whenever I placed a scoop into my mouth. Maybe this is the effort and heart that the chef put into a dish. 

Can I have another Berrific Sundae, please! 

hmm, talking about goal that I aim for this year. It had already succeed a quarter I guess. I'm simple, I just want the people who I love are there by my side and so do I. A great thanks to the people whom I love and also the people who love me accomplish my aim C:

Dont Give Up! c;

tried to recollect stuff that I had done on Sat, and yet, the most I can remember was going to the gym. That was my very first time doing gym. Hmmm, I cycled the so called bike in the gym room and I cannot take it after 5 minutes, I guess. My stamina and energy level was too low. Fine, then I go for another one. This time I did hundred times for it. That ''thing'' is to reduce the fats on the arms and I seriously needed that. It was a little tiring but what surprise me was I felt nothing the next morning. No muscle pain:) YAY. It prove that gym is a good exercise for me although it does not shows any effects yet. It takes time, I know. 

I had done a simple English breakfast for my family. My mom always told us that breakfast should be eaten daily, because it can boost our metabolism and also allow our mind open. So, I had done that for them. It's just simply because I wanted to cook, it's nothing to do with my mom's theory. I know I'm bad. Here it is, nothing special and difficult to cook. It's just scramble egg with coarse black pepper, toasted bread, fried mushroom sausages, baked beans and a cup of iced milo. Plus, my favourite fruit, grapes!

I had to drive today, It was just training session actually, but it really made my heart beats as fast as possible. The uncle taught me how to drive, when I'm supposed to press on the clutch, break and also the accelerator. But, I don't know what I'm doing. The car just dead for almost 5 to 6 times.This made me felt so bad. I was trying so hard to understand every single word that were taught by him, but it just did not work. He said that I'm don't really have the talent to learn driving, so I have to put on more hard work in it. He asked me to press on the accelerator for the very first time, and what I heard was, the ramming sound. I'm like driving a formula one. I didn't know why I press so hard on those break, accelerator. I don't really felt nervous, but I think I lack of confident. I'm afraid. I seriously don't understand why I'm like this. Pls tell me! We did many turns but I still don't get what the uncle said. I can't even drive in a straight line. I kept too much to my left hand side. My brain is blanked when I drive, I just listen to the uncle's command. But, of course I'm a little too slow to react. I kept on press too hardly and quickly on the brake pedal and so there goes the sudden break. I cried when I got home and told my mom and sis about the whole story. It was just a short story and yet I cried for it. I cried because I'm thinking that why I'm so useless. Why I just can't focus and do it. Why my brain went blanked and emptied when I'm driving. Driving isn't toys, I can't just be like this forever. I have to learn, I gotta try even harder in it. And so my sis practiced with me in this afternoon, I didn't know my ,mistakes until she told me. And guess what, I did that sudden break in an auto car this time. Is an auto car man! How can it happened! But, I'm grateful to have my family members beside me, they encourage me, teach me, pull me up whenever I'm in a bad situation. My sis even treated me Chatime after the we had done practicing. She told me that the drink is for encouragement, so that I will do better next day. Thanks to my sis and everybody that support me. I will accept the new challenge in my life, that stupid driving lesson!! 

A Simple Gift For You

I know you will be quite annoyed when I asked you to read my blog, but can you please look at the title of this post before mumbling? You might made a guess in what I'm doing here, and you are definitely right. How brilliant you are ( which means I have no ideas for your birthday, I know, I know.)  By the way, it's a simple surprise, hope you will like it!

See that's the transformation of you, shocking huh! And, look how you've grown, from a kid to a teen, but of course your height still..maintain well (You Are So Cute)!:) Is okay, don't ever bother what people says about anything, just move on. You are stronger than you ever thought. Sometimes, I am shock of what you had done and also how you try to affect others. It's actually a good thing tough. I know sometimes you will felt that you are alone, no one is there to help you out. You are miserable. You have no idea what is the next you should do or choose. But, as what you told me always praying is the best thing we can do in any situation or obstacles that we are facing. We can do nothing, but pray. Everybody falls, rises, does mistakes, makes decision, is just because we are not perfect. And so, that's what friends are all about, becoming the supporters. Don't worry about what's going on next, be tough and stay strong even though you are going through any hard times. It's alright, we will be by your side:) I believe that with your age now, you can overcome anything that irritates you, even people. Yea, I know you are officially 18 now, can do whatever you want, but still wait for me! We suppose to rock together, you know, my sis!:) Happy birthday, my dearly one:) And hey, I've been watching you grow!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

Love the weekend:)

Hmm, what a weekend:) it just goes fantastic this week. Finally I went swimming with my mom yesterday. Of course she sat there alone and watched me swam. I was so motivated on diet, and I told myself I wanted to do 10 laps every Saturday and Sunday. But, is kinda disappointed because I just did 6 laps and I gave up. Now I know how my cousin did like 20 laps every few times a week and she got skinny. I'm impressed of what she had done. She put lots of effort in it, and she deserved what she had done. The second thing was I did not kept my promise, I did not went for swimming or do any sports today due to I'm so lazy. Okay, I admit, I'm really lazy today. I don't feel like doing anything, I just wanna lay in my bed. Hahaha. That's who  I am:) proud to say that tough. I just feeling like staying home today, I'm lazy to walk to the swimming pool, as it is quite a distance from my house. Of course, it's also because of the 10 laps that I'm tired of doing it. Where's all my motivation!!! Gossh, I need it! So, I made sushi at home just to kill my boredom. In the end, it taste nice. I think is because of the egg, I tried to put more sugar in it, so it tasted like Japanese egg. Well, the product was success. My mom and sis like it tough. My bro does not fancy sushi, so he cooked french fries and nuggets for himself. Is like, can u just try my sushi!! The amount of french fries that he cooked gave me a shock, it's just too little for him. But, whatever, course is just tea time. Hahaha.

Oh ya, I put on mask and also cucumber pads that I've made on my face. It's quire refreshing. I love the feeling. I gotta continuously putting on the cucumber pads, not to kill the dark eyed circle but just to enjoy the refreshing moment. I'm weird, I know:) 

I think I love to read these days. I remembered the very first novel that I read is P.S I Love You. It's a quite sad, romantic and interesting book. It describes a woman whom became strong after her husband had left her with all the supports that were given by her friends and families. And now, I'm reading twilight:) I knew a 20 years old girl in the company, she is a quiet person. She don't talk much. But, I love talking with her, maybe is just simply because I admire her. I like how the way she speaks, with her slang and accent. She lent me a book, but of course I haven't started reading yet. I used to admire girls whom are special in my eyes. Maybe they look ordinary to others, but for me, NO. Every girl in the world are special and different, every girl has their own beauty. It is just the matter that do you really pay attention on her:) 

* The more I read, the more I know. The more I know, the more I want to travel;)

Dear self, someday you will shine like a star. Is okay to fall once or twice.

I Cant Bear You Anymore!

I just hated him lots and lots. I have no idea why i hated him that much. Issshhh, I didn't really noticed and talked to him in the office at first. But, he is seriously being blacklisted now. Okay, I knew that I'm the one who did wrongly that day. I wrote the wrong number on the envelope and you can't key into the computer, but do you have to tell the another staff what happened. Since the envelope number can't delete, you can just tell me, maybe I can think of a way to solve it. Do you really have to do that? And now, the manager said that my pay on that day is just 70 bucks. I know is just losing like 10 bucks, but my mind and body  was burning at that particular moment. I ignored you every single time, but you still wanna lend staplers, this and that from me, can't you see that I hated you. Is like have you really need to talk to me? I tried so much to ignore you although you are sitting right next beside me every day. Not only because of that I hated you. The second thing was, you asked me whether the resit should be rejected, and I told you yes, but in the end you questioned me and asked me whether I'm sure about it. Is like why  you have to ask me if you don't believe what I said, you can just go and ask others. Besides that, you closed Audrey's tab while you are using her computer, and ate on her table. Her table was sticky after you left. You just left the seat and get back to your own seat after lunch time. Is like what!! We are not your servant here, okay? Can you be a little responsible? Is not like you are a little kid anymore. You are a teen and soon gonna be an adult. Can you like please, think before you do something. We don't tell or scold you doesn't mean that is not your fault.  I really have nothing to say. I told others how I hated you during lunch time, and right after that, I felt guilty. I have no idea why I felt guilty about it. You just made me headache. Can you please not sit beside me next week? I don't want to see your face!!

What A Hectic Week, I'm Tired, Grrr...

Started working at G2 last Wednesday (2nd of Jan). This time I have to work alone, meet new faces in the office, but I'm lucky because I'm not only one of the new staff there. So, it is not really awkward. Everything I did was alone this time, weiyee is not gonna help me anymore. On the 1st day of work, Fion (my manager) asked us to fill in the application form. I remembered there's a blank to fill in my working experience. What struck into my mind was the month working with wei yee, my another bestie at Pavilion. I didn't realized that time passed so fast, it's already 2 years back. Well, this time I have no more companion working with me, but I still managed it well in these 3 days. So ya, I have to get used to it, learn to be alone as people will not be with me all the time. I don't think this is a negative thinking, in fact is the period whereby I have to grow up,learn new things. I'm a little blur as what my family and friends used to say, especially my sis. She had to explain many times about the directions to the office to me because I'm taking LRT and monarail to the office. Okay, I don't really understand although she had explained many times to me. I just cant imagined the station well. Yet, I got to the office without getting late in these past 3 days. So ya, I'm just lucky:) Thanks to my mom and my sis once again because they woke up early on my 1st day of work, had breakfast with me. My mom was really excited and nervous about my 1st day, but she was even scared that I would got lost more than anything. See, even my mom proved people about this statement- I'm blur. Is okay, I'm used to it, and this is why I can feel more love from my family:) I get to talk to some new people in my office in the 2nd day, they were very good to me. I'm blessed. I even went to Pavilion with some staff during lunch hour. Hmmm, working in G2 is a little too bored for me as they ''trapped'' us in a small room and count resits. But, nothing better than getting to know new faces and the salary. So, I have to get trap again tomorrow. I just need the money to accomplish my ''gotta do list'' in 2013.  Muahahaha. Just hoping that everything will be better. Oh ya, I have to treat my family for dinner after my 1st salary is out, is just a tradition in our house, don't even know since when we had that kind of tradition. Anyways, I'm about to do that. I've to seek for restaurants for them to choose:) I just love them that much! I even went to the theory lesson for driving yesterday, as usual it was boring, and I hated it. But, it is over, YAY!! Now, I've gotta wait for my L license. After that, I'm gonna have training for 8 hours. So, my sis still gotta be my driver. Hiak hiak hiak!:D

* Cant wait to hang out with them on the 27th of Jan:) 

It's Gonna Be Good- 2013;)

I'm thankful of everything that had happened and made me grow in 2012, no matter is the good are bad. Thanks to everyone whom led me a hand  and stand by my side whenever I'm happy or moody. I also appreciated those  moments when everybody were together, especially my family n friends. No matter what, I certainly do hope that it will be better in the coming year, 2013. *say cheese!:) 

Things that I've gotta accomplish in 2013: 

 1. Buy my house a clock 

 2. Go for gatherings no matter what happens

 3. Buy more n more clothes if is possible ( I know I'm dreaming )

 4. Get my P license as soon as possible 

 5. Be a better person, learn to appreciate and tolerate others and also appreciate moments with a joyful heart

 6. Do charity

 7. Eat as much doughnuts as I can ( for outings only ) 

 8. Wish my hair will grow longer, mayb waist length and hope that it will curl a little 

 9. DIET 

 10. Affect people around me to be happy

 11. The last one I guess, save money and travel with my family * Bali, Taiwan, Guam, Europe, Hong Kong, Australia here I come;)

12. Oh, i thought od something I have to do, wallup all twilight saga series ( I mean the book )

I think it is a big change for me in 2013, because I'm gonna turn 18. We can do lots of things at the age of 18, YaY! Getting in to college is the 1st thing, what i just hope is, can the students there talk to me 1st? I'm just not those friendly type in front of strangers. I will go, em, hi. I know is bad, but, old habits die hard. The 2nd thing is driving. I afraid of driving since young. I can scream and shout all the way in the go kart. So ya, cant imagine if I drive a real car. I would be my sis's driver if I pass the driving test. Hmm..the 3rd thing, I cant predict the future, LOL, so I dont know.