18! what a wonderful and anxious age. Everything has to start brand new. New life, new environment, new friends. Hmm, being 18 is not that easy. It's all brand new to me. Yes, I do talk a lot, but i think I only talk a lot in front of those whom I feel comfortable with. But how would I know, who is the girl or guy or maybe a gang I can get along with? I'm curious yet not excited at all. I don't felt nervous or watsoever being in college. ( maybe my sis is also studying there too. Thus, I always think that I still have her being there for me if I'm all alone in the college.) I guess it will be much more busier than being in college. I want to work part time whenever I have free time. I want to save up the money to do things I've wanted to do. I never thought of anything, I just want to use my free time to earn something. And so, I teach kids tuition. I've been annoyed by lots of stuff, driving ( this is the difficult one), tuition, studies, family probs and I think it will be more and more. ( of course I hope not.) I used to care too much how people feel last time, and I realized I shouldnt be like this anymore. I'm shocked that day when singying told me that she don't want to care about other people's stuff. ( I want to think like her if I can) My mom once asked me that day, do I admire my sister. My answer was, yes, yes and yes. I admire her. She changed me a lot. She taught me lots of stuff. She helped me a lot when I'm in trouble. I admire her because of her maturity, her thinking. I remember that I told my mom I wish to be like her. My mom told me that, is actually a path of growing up. ( And yes, I'm definitely not growing up yet). No matter what, I will try to mix around with people, try to cope my studies, try to do things that I've never done before, try to go through all these stuff.
加油，我行的！也许，他说得对，别想太多了！
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