Dec

Had an outing with the weiyee & zhen shen last Saturday. It was supposed to be the gathering of 6 of us, but in the end it ended up only the 3 of us. (kinda used to it with this situation, so I'm still fine with it) The matter about this was, I was not excited or intend to join them that day. What came across into my mind was money and tiredness. I'm tired of going out. (wow, this is so not me!) But, yea, I started to find out that I don't have the intention to join them like I usually has last time. The feeling was so different from last time (gosh, been telling myself not to think like this since the last gathering of the 6 of us) And now, it comes back again. When we grow up, ppl changed and so do we. (because we are humans too) Whatever, get back to the point, I did appear on that day. (It's sounded more like a physical appearance than a mentally, physically plus emotionally appearance)

Hmm, I took a train to the place that I supposed to meet weiyee. (obviously I needed someone to fetch me there) She brought a self-made strawberry sponge cake for zhenshen. (It actually like this. The cake was for him. Weiyee planned this whole damn thing for a long time. I guessed it's like several months ago. She did tell me about her plan. And of course, I added some idea in it- it's more like an imagination. I just told her this and that. But then, I was not serious about it at all. Weiyee was. Nobody knows about the celebration. She didn't tell anyone and so do I. I thought it was cancelled. So for me its like skipping the gathering means nothing to anyone since others are not attending too. But then, Weiyee still went on with her plan. She bought all the cake's ingredients. She received all the rejection the day before the gathering. Ya, I was a bastard because I'm one of them. Before that Zhen shen was kinda excited about this gathering. He told me that he didn't hang out for a long time. Plus, maybe he miss us much? I don't know. I was such a selfish. I care no one, but myself. I care about how tired am i, but not weiyee. She had planned this for quite some times. Plus, I'm the first one who knows about it. Why I acted like that on the day before? I don't know. But, after knowing that she had bought all the ingredients and kinda disappointed about the whole don't wanna go thing. I quickly replied her that I'm going. Okay, I think this had brighten up her day. At least there's someone going. Yea, that's me. Of course, that excited kid too, zhen shen)

The plan was having karaoke session on so we went according to the plan. Weiyee and I reached there first (of course, we had a car!) Zhen shen woke up late, so he reached there a little late. Okay, I was kinda excited about this karaoke session at first. My mood was starting to bloom all of the sudden. Gloomy days had turn into a bright side. I started to be crazy and kinda like don't know what I'm doing kind. (I forgotten what silly moves I've done) Yea, I started to talk like a fish (as in talkative, if you don't get what I meant) I then asked weiyee, do you actually felt upset or cried because nobody come today. I'm shocked that her answer was a No. She said that there's nothing to cry for. Yes, we are important but then everybody had their own stuff to do. Why she has to like forced you guys to come if you guys don't have the intention to come. I was like okay. Luckily she know how to think this way. Oh ya, she also told me that the both of us hadn't been going out for ages. I was like, wow! Definitely shocked when she said that to me. Thanks weiyee. Thanks for telling me that. It's you know, kinda warmth whenever there's someone saying this to you.

We both went into the karaoke room (room 43, will never forget because I went to the washroom more than singing in the room. So I had to remember the room number hardly) As I wanted to sing the song that I had selected- anything could happen. Zhen Shen came in. Okay, I started keep my mouth shut. I was shy singing in front of guys. Sigh. But of course, I said hi to him with an awkward way. Never like this before. Hah. Great improvement, clap pls! 

We selected songs and sang for almost 6 hours in there. We sang lots of song. But then, of course I only sing those that I know. Okay, there's one part whereby I sang- We are never ever getting back together by Taylor Swift, I literally moved my butt and my body. I don't know whether they saw it or not. But then, who cares. Okay, I cared because I felt kinda awkward and embarassing. So, I quickly looked into my bag and searched for my phone so that I had excuse to sit down. What the. There's also one part whereby I'm so excited when zhenshen selected Best Song Ever by 1D. I stood up again and did the same thing. Of course, if I felt embarassed for the 1st time, there's will always be the 2nd time. Then, I did the same thing again to kill my awkwardness. *because when the 1st time works, the 2nd time will works too. At least that's what I've thought at that moment. I don't know much Chinese music, so I leaved it for the 2 of them. And slowly, my eyes started to fall. I WANT TO HAVE A NAP! Weiyee then asked me why am I not singing. I told her the reason and she was not quite happy with it. Okay, I think zhen shen selected some english song and some not so hit song. I tend to sing along with them. 

We went back around 6 and it was raining heavily out there. I want to go home. I don't want to wait anymore. Told you, I was tired. Wei yee parked quite far from where we were. So we had to walk to the parking lot. The both of them asked me to wait for a minute. But then, I told them it was okay. I'm strong enough. I won't get sick. Zhen shen was so kind, he wanted to lend his come to one of us. (There's only one cap) He even thought of giving the both of us tissue to treat it as an umbrella. Hello? Seriously, you want to do that. I laughed right after he suggested that idea. And of course, I rejected both of his request and ran under the rain to the parking lot. That's it for the day. 

Hmm, what I want to say was. Don't ever promise anybody if you know that you are still hesitating about it. Now that everybody had changed. They had their own life to go on, and so do I. Not everything can last long, especially friendship. Not saying that I don't believe in it. But then, some friends can accept of your changed and who you really are, but some can't. They can't leave without the past. (that sounds like me, because i had that kind of feelings once)