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I thought of something just these few days. I wonder why I don't want to start a relationship now. (okay, I admit sometimes I do want to start a relationship, just that you know, it's not the correct timing plus I dont have the guts to do that) So, I did a conclusion for myself - I just want to be a better person for now. I don't want to waste my youth (is not that having relationship is spoiling my youth, is just that..fine, I don't know how to explain) Sometimes I also wonder how long a relationship will last. A year? two years or what? I don't want to cause myself into trouble so is better not to think much about it. So yes, stop thinking starting from tomorrow! 

Getting to understand somebody is kinda difficult. Plus, I don't even really understand myself yet, how am I suppose get to understand others? Tell me, how? I don't know. I always think that getting a relationship is not easy. (Yes, love is simple and easy, but I heard many stories from my friends. It's never easy. So, I gave up) I always believe that when we get to know more things and people, we will eventually know who is the right person for us. 

For now, I just want to be a better me. A better person. I don't know how would I become, but for sure I'm still me. The person that you guys knew me for the very first time. 

 Some things take time. Give me some time.